Well, from the 2nd March UWI hosted their Campus Literature Week in the main library. Lisa invited me to attend and I read for the first time. Talk about pressure! I was petrified. I was the third person to read and many times during the excellent readings before me, that hollow feeling carved a space in my stomach. I glanced back at the audience in the room, almost in slow motion and I thought of pretending to heave and fall sick and rush past them all, out the library and into the bathroom.
There I would do some Isometrics and build a quick sweat. In the event that someone would venture into the bathroom to check on me, they will find me with glazed-over, bloodshot eyes and drooling like a werewolf - hunched over the bathroom sink with one foot raising slightly off the floor as I wrench my stomach out.
But it just seemed like too much to go through and at some time in the future I will be faced with this fear all over again. So I thought, what better place to buss and fail than on a podium in the University of the West Indies' main library during their Campus Literature Week. At least I'll go out in style. From all reports I think it went well and I look forward to doing it again.